Disclaimer: If the profanity in the title offends you, maybe you should find a different blog to read.
So, one day shy of one month down in the new year, and things aren't any different.
Today really sucked ass. I had a nice, hour-long anxiety attack while medicated. Which is just super. The worst thing about them is I know they're happening, but can't do anything to stop it. I tried breathing exercises. Nope. I tried talking myself down. Nope. Fucking frustrating.
The plus side, and believe it or not there is one, is as of next Monday, I will be under an honest to goodness health care plan, courtesy of the VA. I applied for medical benefits today, and my application was accepted, based on my combat veteran status. So war apparently isn't all bad, at least for me.
I am really looking forward to this blog becoming funny. Looking back on it, it is REALLY freaking dreary. It does help me to put this down in written form, but I wonder if it helps anybody else. Or if anybody else is reading. If they are, I hope it does help, if only to give you a comparison so you can say "damn, I'm glad I'm not THAT guy."
Anyway, I'm going to bed. Yeah, I'm an animal; 9:40 PM and I'm ready to drop.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
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